Siapa yang menyangka bahwa makan malam bersama dengan beberapa teman padus membuat saya kembali ke gunung? Saya juga tidak tahu. Waktu itu hari Minggu, 17 Mei, saya ibadah sore, lalu ketika mau pulang, saya bertemu beberapa teman padus yang juga ibadah sore; Ribka, Noel, Ebin, Jun, Ewin, dan seorang teman yang baru saya kenal, Erwin. Kami kemudian saling mengajak makan bersama, dan langsung berangkat. Deket kost saya, jadi pulangnya ga buru-buru. Hehee. Pas lagi nunggu makanan datang, Ewin mengajak saya, Ebin, Ribka, dan Noel untuk ikut mereka ke Gunung Panderman di hari Kamis, tanggal 21 Mei. Saya dan Ebin mengiyakan, mumpung kami memang tidak ada kegiatan di hari itu, tapi Ribka dan Noel ga bisa ikut, sebab mereka ada kegiatan kampus dan kantor. Kata Ewin, kami akan bersama beberapa teman dari komisi pemuda gereja. Oke baiklah.

Di hari Rabu malam, kami sepakat berkumpul di kostnya Jun untuk mempersiapkan segala sesuatunya (termasuk minjam kompor ringkasnya Isno, teman kami yang tidak ikut mendaki) dan berangkat bersama. Mulai menuju kaki Gunung Panderman di jam 1 pagi dengan sepeda motor, kami sempat foto-foto bentar pas liat pemandangan kece di tengah perjalanan. Hahhaa.

Di kostnya Jun, sebelum berangkat

 Yookk, ini lagi dingin banget, percaya deh

Ibadah Penutupan Temu Raya Pemuda GKI 2015

Sabtu, 16 Mei 2015, di GKI Residen Sudirman, Surabaya. PS Suara Nafiri mengisi pujian dan pelayanan dalam ibadah penutupan. Semoga menjadi berkat bagi semua :)

Living with Passion

Since I believe to myself these couple of years to take courage with pencils and also make deal with sketchbooks, I draw. I remember when I was a kid, I used to love drawing, and I drew like I'm gonna be artist someday, although my truly dream was to be an astronaut. I'm not telling a joke, no, it was me never think to be a doctor or police woman or teacher like most of my friends has dreamt to be. I chose to be astronaut. But, I might not know about word 'scientist', because all I used to love was science. I wondered with science experiments, how 'that' can come to be 'this', what would happen if I add 'this thing' in 'that colored water', and so on. I have enchanted to science, that unfortunately made myself to forget that I actually love to draw. Science is always good for me, and I know drawing also do. That's why I chose to be an astronaut when I was kid, just because I can't found the exact word to describe a job for science lover like me. In my mind, it might be very great to be astronaut because I can get outside the earth to see how beautiful it is from the top of sky. But, yeah, latest I knew that to be astronaut might be hard; they have to go through deep, deep, deep exercises and practices that I never imagine before. So I quit with this truly, deeply, innocently dream :)


But I grew up, been a teen, with a lot of things and situations I got through. Studying, reading books and magazines, fan-girling (seriously, I've ever be a fan-girl to some bands and phenomenal story like Harry Potter), scouting, competing, and I totally forget to draw for all the time. I'm busy with my activities, too ambitious to some dreams, and also the moment I finally found someone that everybody in this earth would name this species as 'boyfriend'. I thought my life would be perfect, oh gosh I was just 18 year-old-girl thinking about a perfect life with a boyfriend?! I must be lost my logic. Lol. But then we broke up, I was in my hard time trying to survive and struggling. I remember my old habit, to draw, and I took pencil and paper too shy, but then I drew something, very rough sketch. Just draw, me and paper, and pencil, and sometimes references, and imaginations, and music. I enjoyed my drawing time, I challenged myself drawing something I can't draw before, with bad result, but for me it was not matter. Life getting easy day by day, then I met people who changed my perspective, and I can say they saved my years, I'm thankful for everything they shared to me.

The point I got from them is 'passion'.

I never heard about that word, passion, before, but I opened myself to learn about it. A lot of definitions to describe that word, and in the end I made my own definition of passion.

For me, passion is not only hobby, or something I love to do, or things I enjoyed about, but passion is what makes my heart get warming when I do that, that makes me forget about time and place when I do it, and what I do to make people see, not only myself to see. Passion is more than hobby I spent hours of days to do; passion is the way survive when life gets hard. Passion might be a job I will have, but it's always nice to do it even I don't paid to do that. Passion is what makes me wake up in the morning without any self-doubt to do it because happiness will always make a way.

And finally I know, myself know, my soul know, that drawing is my kind of passion.

I can spend my whole day to learn about drawing, whatever it looks like, or to learn from references in internet, get 'indirect' motivations from some artists, some fun ways to draw, or another type of drawing (like painting, illustrating, about zentagle, or making comic strip, or architecture). I search, search more and more, practice more and more, get excited to learn new drawing, and making illustrations for some poem books (paid or not paid), share some of my drawings to internet and got positive and negative responses, but I can go with it. In other days, I learning-by-experiencing the tools to draw, like pencils, markers, pastels, and watercolor. I enjoyed the time I made bad drawing, but I still posted it to internet and I wondered some people just like it. Thanks to Instagram, Blogger, and Facebook (but Instagram and blog mostly) to be my little gallery of my rough sketches I have ever did. Every response people gave to me, I respect and appreciate and happy with it. It doesn't matter how much 'Like' I got on Instagram or Facebook, but it's mean a lot for me. And there's always a day to not draw, but to explore other artists, especially who draw and make sketch, to get inspired by them. Again, Instagram makes me easily to find a lot of awesome drawing accounts! I can see how amazing an artist can do with drawing: they inspire me so much and other people outside there. I followed them so I can learn to draw more from what they draw. I also use Pinterest to find unique drawing that I can learn or how-to drawing (how to draw hand, or how to draw eyes, because I admit I'm bad in drawing that both :D). But nowadays I access Pinterest to search Harry Potter photos or any other things I love, like jokes or everything (is fan-girling a passion? :p) hehee. Beside, I also followed some artists blogs into my blog's dashboard to see their works and updates (because they don't use any other social media account I can access to), and I followed sketching community on Twitter too.

I love to draw. Whether I paid or not. Money is no object (Alan Watts said it :)) That's the story how I got into drawing. That's the story how I living in my passion.

Is that only drawing as my passion? Honestly, no. But drawing is, as I can say, my top passion these years.

I believe we all have our own passion. Cooking, singing, teaching, anything. Just find it, go with it, and do it. Then you'll find yourself... maybe different from what you think before :)

Images source: Pinterest.com

Neil Gaiman: Keynote Address 2012

I have and got inspired because of this Neil Gaiman speech, so I want to share it here. The source is from http://uarts.edu/neil-gaiman-keynote-address-2012
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134th Commencement

May 17, 2012

I never really expected to find myself giving advice to people graduating from an establishment of higher education.  I never graduated from any such establishment. I never even started at one. I escaped from school as soon as I could, when the prospect of four more years of enforced learning before I'd become the writer I wanted to be was stifling.

I got out into the world, I wrote, and I became a better writer the more I wrote, and I wrote some more, and nobody ever seemed to mind that I was making it up as I went along, they just read what I wrote and they paid for it, or they didn't, and often they commissioned me to write something else for them.

Which has left me with a healthy respect and fondness for higher education that those of my friends and family, who attended Universities, were cured of long ago.

Looking back, I've had a remarkable ride. I'm not sure I can call it a career, because a career implies that I had some kind of career plan, and I never did. The nearest thing I had was a list I made when I was 15 of everything I wanted to do: to write an adult novel, a children's book, a comic, a movie, record an audiobook, write an episode of Doctor Who... and so on. I didn't have a career. I just did the next thing on the list.

So I thought I'd tell you everything I wish I'd known starting out, and a few things that, looking back on it, I suppose that I did know. And that I would also give you the best piece of advice I'd ever got, which I completely failed to follow.